should have been there...

am here sitting in front of my pc, conferencing with my orgmates via ym regarding sem planning.

should have been there with them in batangas. but what can i do? sometimes, things do not turn out the way we want it to be.

scrappy and scooby

since it was my grandmother's birthday yesterday, she got a present form her sister. a puppy. and since we already have a dog and named him scrappy, we opted to call the pup scooby.

realized that even dogs do have jealousy worn on their sleeves. saw the whole thing through scrappy's reactions. he overcame it in just hours, though.

hehe.

i am my own

when will people learn that i am not just their property! (no offense, di ka kasama dito at iba ang inaalburuto ko, hindi ikaw, ok?)

i am not just a son.
i am more than that.
i play the role of a friend,
a classmate,
a lover,
orgmate,
a leader,
talent,
confidant,
and more.

i cannot be confined by what you just want me to be.
the world owns me too.

sagala galore

sorry

sometimes, i get this feeling that if i fail to be strong, all things will fall apart. that is why i have started to cope up with the defense mechanisms that i have, but seldom use.

but with those mechanisms, i began to hurt people, especially those who love me so dearly. siguro nga, wala na akong ibang alam gawin sa mundo kundi ang manakit e.

and for that i apologize.

sometimes, i end up trying to evade things for me to end up not getting hurt. i try not to give much fuzz about things, but yeah, you are right. i am just saving it at some other time. in the mean time, it is building up slowly.

i did not deliberately ignore your feelings just so to hurt you... i won't do that... pero recently, i am trying not to get hurt myself for me not to fall apart. i am at the verge of falling apart.

831.

the tale of juliet part two

got a message from maam jhet again, the author of the tale of juliet.

i really admire her, for sharing strengths to dreamers and well-wishers to make that dream into a reality.

that is a real winnner- one who succeeds, and wants others to succeed as well.

and with that, i salute you!

visit www.thetaleofjuliet.com and get the guts you need to get that dream!

mothers day

went to the mall with my sister kanina to buy some gifts for my mom and grandmother. papalapit na kasi ang mother's day e.

hay, naku. sometimes my mom, amy grandma and i get involved in a fight or a discussion once in a while, pero di matatawaran ang mga nagawa nila sa akin.

me...

before, i used to like being alone. there are many thoughts that i can entertain. i can actually contemplate on my life.

pero minsan nakakatakot na ngayon. i am getting older. and sometimes, the present, the pst and the future pose questions that can bring the hell out of me when i think about it.

what lies ahead tomorrow? ganito ba talaga pag 21 na? pano na ako, sila, tayo?

the attacks of the gamu gamo

i have never imagined myself being a part of ghost busters for crying out loud.

but today, i have to make this contraption (called a vacuum cleaner) just to eradicate a population of eerie, gross creatures that feef on light...

oo exag na...

gamu gamo. as in everywhere. daig pa nila ang putakti sa pagputakti sa tahanan namin. Kaya naman nag volunteer na akong puksain silang lahat. at dahilo di tumalab ang water at batya, go na ako sa vacuum cleaner option.

what i love about this scene is the fact na dahil marami nang gamu gamo e palapit na ang tag-ulan. pero up to now, no signs of evena bit of raindrop. i swear, ok lang sa akin na mag vacuum ng gamu gamo basta lang umulan...

birthmonth ko na...

welcome to my birthmonth!

in a few days, i will be celebrating my 21st birthday na.

male debut, in other words...

haaay....

what awaits after that borderline?

nakakaexcite na nakakatakot...

ang labor day...

this labor day had me thinking...

after talking to some of my friends who have graduated, and after looking at their friendster posts, and after seeing some of them bumming around town...

hay, naalala ko...

most of my bathcmates have graduated na...

and they plan to take it easy for a while and enjoy the moments after graduation...

samantalang ako...

i have this urgent need to make my own bucks...

be independent...

help my family...

help myself...

haaay...